Losing steam, perhaps?

I don't know what swept over me! Ever since receiving the email with regards to the impending Honours potential project titles for 2007, I have been doing alot of thinking since Sunday. Today, I contemplated with the thought of withdrawing from it. I did my mental sums for my GPA and after calculation, I doubt I have the ability to qualify for it. Even if I score strings of distinctions this semester, I would not be able to "push" my GPA up to a 6. No point crying over spilled milk. I know, I'm not crying and I am not regretting for not doing well because, the results that I obtained for last semester is what I have prayed and asked for. Glory to God for answering my prayers!

Anyway, I was chatting with my younger sister and I was telling her about my thinking of pulling out from the Honours programme. She gave me alot of constructive remarks and advise and yes, she did encourage me to try and if I did not qualify it, I should be contented that out of the 24 who expressed interest, I should be contented that those who did qualify, were true competitors. However, if I chose to pull out without even trying and someone who had a lower GPA qualified, I would hit the roof!

But I am feel that I am beginning to lose steam and need to find sources of motivation to keep me going. I remember telling Liyan that despite being a tough semester, as long as we do not lose steam and complete the race that is set before us, that's all it matters!

When I started writting this entry, I had no idea where this entry would lead to. However, I am glad that there were several lessons that I can take home. I know that I have a supportive family and friends back home that I know I will not be judged based on my grades and whether or not I qualify for the programme, I know I am always and will be welcomed with both arms extended. I thank the Lord for the opportunity for me to be able to pursue a university education.

Lord, I just pray and ask them you will grant me the strength to go through the rest of this semester. I pray and ask them you will guide me through and I want to commit the Honours Programme into your hands. Lord, whether or not I qualify, I just pray that it is all part of the great plan you have for me. Bless those dear to me Lord. Amen