How do you know?

As with all other nights, I would say a little prayer to the Lord thanking Him for seeing me through the day and for all the little praises that I have received and apologising the bad/hurtful things that came out of my mouth. Without fail, I'd pray and ask the Lord about my prince, praying and asking for the qualities that I want to see in my prince.

So, after muttering the prayer, I closed my eyes and start to get ready for sleep. Then a thought popped into my mind - how do you know if (s)he is the one for you? I asked the question to couple of my colleagues today and they all gave me varied answers. However, one common answer stood out - you will know it when the time comes. Seriously, how do you know? I asked the Lord to allow me to be discerning, to give me signs so that I will know it is him.

Looking back on how "far" my friendship with Benny has blossomed, it has become from just friends - "Ooh this guy is so cute!" to "Its nice knowing you" to "Ooh, his messages brings a smile to my face" to now, liking him. I'm starting to think if there will be a possibility of being together in a relationship and of course, marriage. Thinking alittle too far? I reckon it doesn't hurt but I just pray and ask that I do not get blinded by love that I start becoming irrational.

On the flip side, I know that deep within me, I am fearful of getting into a relationship - No, I'm not afraid of commitments but rather I am afraid of betrayal, afraid to be hurt. But then again, without fear, we would not have the strength or courage to pick ourselves up and move on, without fear we would not learn to love and if we don't love, we would not feel happy. So, with fear, we learn to overcome it and we learn to love and when we start to love, we feel happy.

So, I reckon, only time will tell.